EarlofMarch

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Flames lap up my clothes.

Flames burn my scorching skin.

Flames weave their arms around me.

Flames coax out a voice buried in disapproval,

Flames draw my fate and signal the draw of the curtain.

Flames eat me from the outside while my soul dies from the inside.

Flames speak to me silently as the world stares on aghast at my dance.

When my eyes shut, the world shall light up in flickers and when I’m gone, so will my flames.

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Let’s save the good words for the strong,

Let’s reserve the encouragement for the weak.

May the tide be with the competent,

And let luck glance upon the struggling.

Today we unite once again as we always will,

To make pretend and rejoice for the equality of humanity.

 

May the crippled man run with the fit,

May the mute debate with the politician.

Oh yes indeed, let us all rejoice,

At how very equal mankind is.

For surely we are equal?

Our sanity has been approved and the stamp

of many a dozen, reputed, medical institutes grace it.

 

If there is confusion amongst the peoples,

A simple query is posed,

“If what is spoken of seems so blatantly unequal,

and if humanity is so very sane and kind,

how could such a system still exist?

For wouldn’t the warrior that the common man is,

rise up to fight against such inequality?”

The very existence of such a system,

in an age filled with such civil people,

Is proof of its legitimacy.

 

And so it is said,

Let the voices of the few who dissent,

be stifled down and silenced!

The world, our world, does not need their equality,

Their equity! We are complete as we are now.

Indeed, let us break bread with the insane,

and laugh knowledgeably at his words.

I feel especially tensed today. I was filling in an entry in my diary when I realized that I am actually quite unhappy with the way I am right now. Or rather, I feel claustrophobic thinking about how every move I make is monitored by society. It’s made me wonder how someone as crazy and independent as me has suddenly become a serf to society.

Being a responsible adult, dressing a certain way, talking a certain way. Did I actually make all those decisions? Who am I?

I’m a loner. I like being alone and with my laptop, watching obscure shows till the wee hours of the morning. I’ve pretty much rejected society and thoughts of a normal life. But I can’t help but wonder. Am I really okay with the way I am? Do I actually like being alone? When and how did I become a loner? Wasn’t I an incredibly jovial social person? I used to love reading and playing with my friends! (I use the word “play” because the last time I did anything of the sort I was in grade 8).

I’ve rejected society, but why? Am I actually independent? Am I okay with having no one to rely on. Am I okay with being friendless, alone and desolate? Am I fine? How did I become this way?
I’m sorry for the rant. It’s just that I’ve never thought about how I turned out this way. I love myself. I’m not depressed. But I do want to know why i am the way I am. And at the same time I cannot help but feel suffocated by the world around me.

The world that wants me to conform to a certain norm. The world that wants me to do something I may not enjoy. The world that turns a blind eye. I turn a blind eye. But can I really blame the world? Maybe I’m not brave enough. Maybe it is me who does not have the courage to spread my wings and soar. Soar. Soar. Soar.

I want so much more that it’s making me choke up. Please, I want to break free of these chains.

Are there any chains?